My Sheep Hear My Voice
9/25/11
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John
10:23 And Jesus walked in the temple in Solomon's porch.
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10:24 Then
came the Jews round about him, and said unto him, How long dost thou make us
to doubt? If thou be the Christ, tell
us plainly.
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10:25 Jesus
answered them, I told you, and ye believed not: the works that I do in my
Father's name, they bear witness of me.
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10:26 But
ye believe not, because ye are not of my sheep, as I said unto you.
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10:27 My
sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:
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10:28 And
I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any
man pluck them out of my hand.
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10:29 My
Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck
them out of my Father's hand.
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10:30 I
and my Father are one.
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10:31 Then
the Jews took up stones again to stone him.
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10:32 Jesus
answered them, Many good works have I shewed you from my Father; for which of
those works do ye stone me?
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10:33 The Jews
answered him, saying, For a good work we stone thee not; but for blasphemy;
and because that thou, being a man, makest thyself God.
10:34 Jesus
answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?
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I love the picture I
found of Jesus holding the little “black” sheep in his arms…yes, notice the
lamb in his arms is black! I once wrote a Heartsong Newsletter entitled “Black Sheep” (which I’ve attached for
those who haven’t read it and are interested) which begins… “Ya know black
sheep have really gotten a bum rap. I
mean, what does it really mean when someone says, ‘Oh, she's just the black
sheep of the family? Is that supposed
to be derogatory or something? Like a
polite way of saying, "Oh, she's really
out there!" or "She's really
gone off the deep end!" Well,
I've always been known as the black sheep of my family. And ya know what? I'm damn proud of it!”
The rest of the story is
filled with humorous anecdotes and analogies epitomizing why “black sheep”
are the ones asking the “really hard questions” and have been given the “bum
rap” for doing so. In conclusion I
remind my readers that… “Speaking of what is real. The other day I was talking to a farmer who
raises sheep. He told me that the
black sheep of the flock are the most valuable. They use the black sheep to count the other
sheep in the flock. For every hundred
white sheep, they stick in one black sheep.
That way they only have to count the black sheep to determine how many
sheep are in the flock. In other
words…the black sheep are the only ones that count!”
Yes, I believe it is
the black sheep who are the “Wayseers,” the “Anonymous,” the “Occupiers,” the
“BSBs” (Bull Shit Busters) or, in Biblical terms…the “Truthseekers.” Remember those one-der-ful scriptures you
learned in Sunday School and Seminary describing these so-called Truthseeker?
“Ask, and it will be
given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”
Matthew 7:7
“And you will know the
truth, and the truth will set you free.”
John 8:32
But as many of you who
are truthseekers already know that telling the truth doesn’t necessarily set
you free. In fact, in my particular
case, it has made a whole lot of
enemies and has landed me in jail! So why, you may ask, do I keep seeking the
truth, finding the truth, and then telling the truth…regardless of how it
affects others and at all the risks I take?
I guess it boils right down to the fact that I’m just a “black sheep”
and ya know what? I’m damn proud of
it!
A few weeks ago I was
in our Jacuzzi with a young couple
who live in the same town-home complex as me.
The young man was telling the young woman a joke that went something
like this:
There was this young
monk who joined a monastery which embraced all of the essential esoteric
ideas of abstinence. His first
assignment was to copy word-for-word the scriptures that had been handed down
through centuries of translation. As
he was working diligently on a copy of a text, he became curious and asked
the head monk in charge of the monastery why he didn’t copy the words
straight from the originals so as not to copy any mistranslations. The head monk, recognizing it was a good
question, decided to go down into the vaults and dig out the original
transcripts for the young monk to copy.
He was gone for several hours and the young monk became concerned for
this elder monk, thinking that something had happened to him. He found his way down the darkened stairway
to the secret, hidden chamber and screeched open the heavy door. There he found the ancient monk bent over
an old scroll crying remorsefully, “It was celebrate…Oh My God…it was celebrate!”
Yes, a lot has been
“lost in translation” of who Jesus Christ truly was…a fully-embodied “temple
of light” who selflessly administered love to everyone he came in contact
with. Even the so-called “whore” known
as Mary Magdalene who came to be his consort and “a woman who knew the all.” That’s why I love studying the original
Gnostic translations found at the Dead Sea or the Nag Hammadi as I believe
these give us a more accurate view of who Jesus Christ truly was. From the Gospel of Philip we read:
The companion of the
(Saviour is) Mary Magdalene. (But
Christ loved) her more than (all) the disciples and used to kiss her (often)
on her (mouth). The rest of (the
disciples were offended by it…). They
said to him, “Why do you love her more than all of us?” The Saviour answered and said to them, “Why
do I not love you as (I love) her?’”
(Note: The parenthesis are the “fill in the blanks” by the translators
as many of the scrolls were badly damaged by fire.)
And in the book The Second Messiah by Christopher
Knight and Robert Lomas, it goes on to explain:
The Gospel of Mary tells us that she was
favoured with visions and insight that far surpassed Peter’s. Another document, the Dialogue of the Saviour, describes her as the apostle who excels
all the rest… “a woman who knew the All.”
Gospels that refer to the equality of women were rejected by the Roman
Church under the catch-all accusation of being Gnostic, but in these versions
it is clear that there was a power struggle between Peter and Mary
Magdalene. In a document called
“Pistis Sophia,” Peter complains that Mary is dominating the conversation
with Jesus and displacing the rightful priority of Peter and the other male
apostles. Peter asks Jesus to silence
her, but he is quickly rebuked. Mary
Magdalene later admits to Jesus that she hardly dares speak to Peter because:
“Peter makes me hesitate; I am afraid of him, because he hates the female
race.” Jesus replies that whoever the
Spirit inspires is divinely ordained to speak, whether man or woman.
And then
in the Gospel of Thomas we read:
Simon Peter said to
them, “Make Mary leave us, for females are not worthy of life.”
Jesus said, “Look, I
shall guide her to make her male, so that she too may become a living spirit
resembling you males. For every female
who makes herself male will enter the Kingdom of Heaven.”
I sometimes
get discouraged (if I’m not careful) by the lack of positive response I get
from the many Heartsong Newsletters
I send out to the hundreds of “beloveds” in my congregation. And I often get some negative responses
that cause me to ponder why I even continue writing them. Below is a classic example following my
last Heartsong Newsletter entitled
“The Holy Vortex.” (I’ve included it “as is” without any edits.)
Let me fill you in, the Tantric bullshit you spew is nothing more that an EXCUSE for you to fuck or jerk everyone with a pulse. This "religion of energy flow bullshit" is nothing more than a WEAK JUSTIFICATION for having lots of sex with strangers in the name of "Energy" ...you need many men to give you FALSE attention for sex to feel good about yourself. Daddy mistreated you, you hate yourself deep inside, and this Holly Vortex is nothing more than a way to feel good about your whoredom and to call yourself a "Business woman" ha ha. Now thas funny. Just call your self an eccentric Madam that can't stop typing her incoherent ramblings and craves sex all the time. Have a wonderful day full of love, peace and harmony! May your chakras align with the great energy of the universe...now take your clothes off and I will say some stupid bullshit before we start fucking after some drawn out lame touching session (what you do in a nutshell). Have fun fucking men for money, don't worry, I know they eventually get it for free when they want...You must need allot of strange men to fill that black hole where your soul used to be. Stop justifying...just be who you are...nothing wrong with a horny woman with skills! Just dont use the Holly Vortex, it makes guys think your crazy adn money hungry. Seriuosly, not to mention every guy knows your a hooker. Who wants you exclusively who is not serioulsy damaged? Have fun with the dirty dozen...it will only be for a short time...we all have to answer to our creator eventually, even me. Not looking foward to that day... OUCH! I must admit, I did get some good laughs from most of your emails...thanks for that. Stay positive! Change professions and find a best freind to be your companion. Dirty dozens will get you killed, physically and spiritually. Your wholly vortex needs only one client....your best feind your attracted to...keep looking. Come back to earth...you may meet a nice guy who loves you for you, not just your holy vortex.
After
reading my last chapter assignment for my Non-violent Communication Class
entitled “The Power of Empathy” (by Marshall Rosenberg), I attempted an
answer from a somewhat “non-violent” perspective.
Do I even know you Dave? Have we ever even met? Obviously
you've never been in to see me as you don't even know who I am, what Tantra
is, and what I do as a Minister of my own church. Obviously too you are one
of those damaged men out there who doesn't know how to satisfy a woman and
thinks everyone who is beautiful and has a brain must be a hooker, whore,
prostitute or slut. Why is it women who have several lovers is labeled as
such and yet a man who has several lovers is labeled a prophet, polygamist,
or stud? I would certainly like to change that image of a poly/tantra Goddess
which is what I consider myself to be. Others opinions of me have never
mattered nor will they--it is their business not mine. But since you offered
your opinion and it seems to be quite strong--I'm inviting you to look at
women like me differently as I believe that this type of angry attitude
towards women and Mother Earth is what has brought so much damage to the
feminine energy of the planet. I believe that we are evolving into what I
call a "holy vortex of light”--and there are those who are waking up to
their own” temple of light” which they are. I pray for men like you who
can admit to the darkened state they are in and receive the light that is
within themselves to awaken.
Actually I do have a best friend who I live with and
honors me in every way and recognizes that everyone has great potential to
love others. He's totally satisfied being monogamous with me as I fulfill him
in every way--yet he allows me my tantric practice where I can love other men
on all tantric levels.
Again, I'm sorry that you feel the way you do--the energy
that comes out of you in this e-mail tells me that you are very wounded
and are calling out for love. I wish that you would be open to receiving the
love that I have to offer--in a non-sexual way. Perhaps some of the words
I've said have touched your heart and you can begin to heal from all of your
damage.
Peace and love be with your soul. Have a nice day!
J. Bird
I had an interesting conversation with a dear
friend of mine, Ken, about this particular e-mail that was sent to me. He confided to me that one of the
difficulties I have (and most people do) is their resistance to embrace their
“dark side.” That in order for me to
fully integrate myself on all levels,
I need to embrace the dark side of myself who is the whore who absolutely enjoys sex with every man on the entire
planet! (And sure, if I could get
paid for it—all the better!) I then
don’t have to go to war with myself or with anyone else who believes that I
am that…I accept the fact that I am
all of that…the Madonna, the Whore; the Saint, the Sinner; the
Victim, the Victor; the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly. I AM THE DUALITY AND IN EMBRACING THE
DUALITY, I EMBRACE THE ONENESS!
And so
after doing some therapy sessions with Ken and with another guy who showed up
on my doorstep named Nathan who did some EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique)
therapy with me, I’m learning to embrace the “dark side” of myself that is the whore. But still there is this “saint” which comes
out every so often who just wants to “heal the world with country love”
(which are great words to a John Denver song BTW :)
Country love is kisses
in the kitchen
Country love is honest
and is true
Country love is home
with your family
Country love’s the way
that I love you
Sometimes
I can so relate to the story of Jonah (Janae) and his/her resistance in
sailing to Nineveh to preach repentance to the sinners there. To “repent” means to “turn around” and
“sin” means “separation within.” (At
least in my book!) It wasn’t until Jonah was swallowed up by a
whale and lived three days in his own darkness that he agreed to go to
Nineveh. And wow—what a triumphant
story of how they all repented (turned around) and were saved from their sins
(separation within)! But it was only
after Jonah accepted his own “darkness.”
Remember—he even tried running away from it!
And so I
don’t take it personally anymore (or at least try not to) when people reject
the words that I put out there…it really doesn’t matter…because I mostly
write for my own personal healing and catharsis. If anyone “out there” reads what I have to
say and benefits from it…then the effort of sending it out is its own
reward. Clearly, I’m reminded of two
passages of scriptures which attest to the fact that not everyone is ready to
hear what I have to say. The first is
about the gardener who casts his seed into a field (Matthew 13:3-9):
3And he spake many
things unto them in parables, saying, Behold, a sower went forth to sow;
4And
when he sowed, some seeds fell by the way side, and the fowls came and
devoured them up:
5Some
fell upon stony places, where they had not much earth: and forthwith they
sprung up, because they had no deepness of earth:
6And
when the sun was up, they were scorched; and because they had no root, they
withered away.
7And
some fell among thorns; and the thorns sprung up, and choked them:
8But
other fell into good ground, and brought forth fruit, some an hundredfold,
some sixtyfold, some thirtyfold.
9Who
hath ears to hear, let him hear.
The other is
some good advice which states: “Give not that which is holy
unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample
them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.” (Matthew 7:6) Yes, I’ve been guilty of “casting my pearls
before swine” (do pigs or “cops” fall into this category?) and I suppose I
get the rending I deserve. Even to the
point that just after I received the previous e-mail, my site was hacked into
and all my inbox was deleted and I couldn’t send out any more e-mails from
that site until it was fixed! (I’m wondering now if Dave was the hacker.)
Aaahhh…but then there are those “aha” moments or
moments of sheer ecstatic epiphanies that make every negative response
worthwhile. It came when I ran into an
old acquaintance at the Earthdance
Celebration last Saturday (Sept. 24) at the Salt Lake City Library. His name was Joe Zug and I’d met him at one
of his presentations on the Mayan Calendar about a year ago. I was deeply impressed by his knowledge and
information that he’d compiled concerning the Mayan Calendar’s predictions
surrounding 2012. He’d really done his
research…and I’d always wanted to contact him to connect with him for more
details. Then…there he was at Earthdance and I nearly ran right into
him! He was carrying a tote bag and
when I told him my name and what I was doing these days…he could hardly
believe it. I told him I’d started a
non-profit organization called “The Holy Vortex Foundation” which was a
network connecting sustainable intentional communities together. He then said that he’d also been
impressed…or maybe inspired…to connect with others to form an intentional
community here in Utah. He then shared
that he’d been awakened at 4 a.m. that morning by a sense of urgency, with
several scriptures brought to his mind by Spirit. One was John 4:35 which says:
Say not ye, There are yet four months, and then
cometh harvest? Behold, I say unto you, Lift up your eyes, and look on the
fields; for they are white already to harvest.
This idea is reiterated several times in the LDS Doctrine of Covenants Sections 4, 11, 12, 14, 15, 16, 18, 31, 33, 75 with regards to
missionary work. Here’s just one
example in D&C Section 4:
1 Now behold, a marvelous
work is about to come forth among the children of men.
2 Therefore,
O ye that embark in the service
of God, see that ye serve
him with all your heart, might, mind and strength, that ye may stand blameless
before God at the last day.
4 For
behold the field
is white already to harvest;
and lo, he that thrusteth in his sickle with his might, the same layeth up in
store
that he perisheth not, but bringeth salvation to his soul;
5 And
faith,
hope,
charity
and love,
with an eye
single to the glory
of God, qualify
him for the work.
6 Remember
faith, virtue,
knowledge, temperance,
patience,
brotherly
kindness,
godliness,
charity, humility,
diligence.
STOP! TIME OUT!
HOLD ON A MINUTE! Why is Janae
Bird (better known as “naked as a J. Bird”) quoting LDS scripture…or any
scripture for that matter? To be
honest with you, I spent half a day writing a 115-page discourse arguing this
very subject of “Why the Holy Bible Can NOT be Used as a Law Form” which I
sent into the National De Jure
Republic last week. (100 pages I
downloaded from godlessgeeks.com website referencing “ridiculous Bible
quotes.”) So I’m not using scriptural
passages to support any “legal argument,” I’m merely using them as tools for
insights or inspiration…which is how Joe Zug had been downloaded by Spirit
that morning. Anyway, Joe exclaimed to
me what the mystery of “white and ready to harvest” really meant. “It’s when all the colors of your chakra
system are activated and aligned and you have a kundalini awakening! You
see when all the colors of the rainbow are combined, they are transformed
into white light! Then you are ready
to harvest!”
I’d been inspired that morning to wear the same
outfit I’d worn to my last court hearing which I’d described in a previous Heartsong Newsletter entitled “All the
World’s a Stage.”
…my rainbow vortex medicine bag filled with a dash
of sacred salt from the Salt Flats and a pinch of helichrysum I’d been gifted
with during the Pipe Ceremony the
night before, my tie-dyed Nudestock
shirt sporting a peace sign on front layered with a lacey white tank top, my
tight capris jeans I’d scored at the “Mexican Swapmeet” at the Redwood Road
Theater, layered with a rainbow tie-dyed wrap-around mini-skirt. As I was completing my ensemble with silver
“vortex” earrings I’d traded for a Tantric massage from a guy I’d met in Maui
who’d purchased them on a recent trip to India,
The only thing different was instead of my “tight
capris jeans” I was wearing tight white capris; and instead of the silver
“vortex” earrings, I was wearing a hexagonal rainbow quartz necklace with
matching quartz crystal earrings.
I then looked at Joe and replied, “Yea, kinda like
the outfit I’m wearing.” He looked at
me and laughed out loud, “Yes, that’s exactly what I’m talking about!” We then both talked for awhile about
chakras and kundalini and tantra and…then he paused midstream and remarked,
“Oh, you must be one of the two people I was supposed to give these CDs
to.” He then reached inside his tote
bag and pulled out a self-produced CD entitled, “2012: God's Planned Shift (GPS) in Our Consciousness." I looked at the cover and noticed the Mayan
symbol was the same symbol that was painted on the wall in my Shaman Room at Heartsong.
“Oh, you mean the ‘Galactic Butterfly’” Joe remarked
nonchalantly and then went on to explain his own meaning behind the
symbol. In all the time I’d spent looking
at that symbol on the wall, it never occurred to me that it had anything to
do with butterflies. Then that moment
of grace hit me like a bolt of lightning…OH MY GOD…this Mayan symbol
describes my entire Vision Quest atop Marriage Mountain at Higher Ground to
the tee! The two
butterflies…symbolizing the Gathering of What is Real…disappearing into the
next dimension…inside a Holy Vortex.
I’ll spare you the details (they’re found in both of my books, Heartsong and Heart Wide Open) but I couldn’t wait to get home to watch Joe
Zug’s CD and google the symbolic meaning of the Galactic Butterfly.
  
This symbol is called the Galactic Butterfly which
is said to represent all of the consciousness that has ever existed in this
galaxy. This is all of our physical ancestors both human, animal, reptile,
fish, shell fish, plants as well as the consciousness which organized all of
the raw material from a whirling disk into stars then planets and solar
systems. Big Meaning. So big that the original Maya had no symbol
for this. In their civilization it was like having no name for God. Just
knowing the concept was good enough. Later
this pattern was devised by Toltec or Zapatec weavers as a pattern for
blankets and this is where Jose Arguelles came across it. He called it Hunab
Ku. The indigenous peoples call it "The Galactic Butterfly". Butterflies are seen as ancestors returning
for a visit to physicality. Wearing
one of these symbols is very powerful as it broadcasts your reaching to
actively join the consciousness of our galaxy.
One more thing…Joe mentioned that the other
scriptural reference that was downloaded to him that morning (and also
mentioned in his CD) was concerning the “stone that was cut out of the
mountains without hands that would roll forth and cover the earth” found in Daniel (which I looked up for
myself):
Thou, O
king, sawest, and behold a great image. This great image, whose brightness
was excellent, stood before thee; and the form thereof was terrible. This
image's head was of fine gold, his breast and his arms of silver, his belly
and his thighs of brass, his legs of iron, his feet part of iron and part of
clay. Thou sawest till that a stone was cut out without hands, which smote
the image upon his feet that were of iron and clay, and broke them to pieces.
Then was the iron, the clay, the brass, the silver and the gold, broken to
pieces together, and became like the chaff of the summer threshing floors;
and the wind carried them away, that no place was found for them; and the
stone that smote the image became a great mountain, and filled the whole
earth." (Daniel 2:31-35)
For as much
as thou sawest that the stone was cut out of the mountain without hands. (Daniel 2:45)
God often uses a mountain to symbolize His people,
Zion and Jerusalem as in the following verses:
Thus saith
the Lord; I am returned unto Zion, and will dwell in the midst of Jerusalem:
and Jerusalem shall be called a city of Truth and the mountain of the Lord of
hosts, the holy mountain. (Zechariah
8:3)
The word
concerning Jerusalem. In the last
days, the mountain of the Lord's house shall be established in the top of the
mountains, and all nations shall flow into it. And many people shall say,
come ye let us go up to the mountain of the Lord. Out of Zion shall go forth the law. (Isaiah 2:1-3)
Now, let’s go back to the stone in Daniel. What is the stone that comes out of the mountain? If the mountain is God's people (or church), then the stone are the people coming out of God's church (or churches). The stone was a part of the mountain, and had to be cut out of it, without hands. Who are these people that came out of the church, and are so much like Jesus that they are called a stone? (Or maybe they’re just “stoned” J) A remnant comes out of the mountain, out of the church, out of the woman. The stone or the remnant grows and becomes a great mountain that the “dragon” (or some may call the devil) is going to make war with. “And the dragon was wroth with the woman, and went to make war with the remnant of her seed.” (Rev. 12:17)
The Mormon
and Christian Churches were founded upon the “rock of revelation” or let’s
say the “letter of the law” or priesthood power. This could be considered “the mountain of
the Lord” or the “firm foundation” on which they were built. But the scriptures talk about a
“cornerstone” that has been cut out of the mountain without hands that is
“feminine” in nature or let’s say the “spirit of the law.” This is described as the “remnant” who
“hear His voice and do His works.”
Could this be the chief cornerstone described in Isaiah?
Therefore
thus says the Lord God: “Behold, I lay in Zion a stone for a foundation, A
tried stone, a precious cornerstone, a sure foundation; Whoever believes will
not act hastily.
Also I
will make justice the measuring line, And righteousness the plummet; The hail
will sweep away the refuge of lies, And the waters will overflow the hiding
place. (Isaiah 28:16-17)
Is this
“remnant” the “children of Israel” who truly see “what is real?” That the reality of who we are…what we
are…is simply total, unconditional love. That when we get in touch with our own
capacity to love we truly see the reality that…WE ARE ALL ONE! This also reminds me of two of my favorite
Mormon scriptures, which always went straight to my heart. Doctrine and Covenants 1:19-23, which
reads:
The weak
things of the world shall come forth and break down the mighty and strong
ones, that man should not counsel his fellow man, neither trust in the arm of
flesh—but that every man might speak in the name of God the Lord, even the
Savior of the world; that faith also might increase in the earth; that mine
everlasting covenant might be established; that the fullness of my gospel
might be proclaimed by the weak and the simple unto the ends of the world, and
before kings and rulers.
And my other favorite, D&C 65:2, which reads:
The keys of
the kingdom of God are committed unto man on earth, and from thence shall the
gospel roll forth unto the ends of the earth, as the stone which is cut out
of the mountain without hands shall roll forth, until it has filled the whole
earth.
Okay,
so enough “Bible-bashing” for one day.
The point is—no matter where you get your inspiration or revelation
from… “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me.”
(John 10:27) Perhaps the Holy Grail
or the much sought-after artifact representing the vessel containing Christ’s
blood or the transmutation of darkness into light will indeed be brought to
the High Priests by a woman riding a serpent with seven heads representing
awakened Kundalini energy. I love this
ancient artifact I discovered on the internet!
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